my whole childhood I felt so alone and hurt. i did anything I could to get positive attention from the adults in my life but it was never enough. got a full ride to college, it wasn’t enough. graduated early, wasn’t enough. got a masters degree, wasn’t enough. got a good job, wasn’t enough. i stop people pleasing, “where are you? why don’t you come by?” you hurt me my whole life. i was alone in my room. grasping at any form of love. i don’t know what to do now. is it irreparable..? probably. but who knows.
|